Sorry but I have a real life join on so I haven’t been posting, here’s a runs down:

1) I have a legitimate engineering job that makes more money than most graduates

2) I took care of a close friend for about 3 weeks and learned a lot about being a mentor and father sort of. I hope he gets back on his feet and its unfortunate his family doesn’t exist and the one family member he has is unsupportive and immature.

3) after 2, I realize why my mother says “text me and tell me where you are” and “don’t be out too late” and such because I found myself coin the same with him. In fact his own mother went out and partied while I was at home taking him to bday parties and helping him get healthcare

4) I thought I was failing calc, I lead a group of students and we all got our grades adjusted, mine doubled as a result and I’m proud.

5) I’m genuinely happy about life right now and that’s more than I can usually say. No girl right now still, but tbh, that’ll come in time, I need to work on me and the rest will come naturally.

still dont know why i continue to get on here.

Stayed up til 3 recording my new album then fall asleep to my dead grandmother and she no longer had hearing problems or Alzheimer’s, she was just her, something I rarely ever got to see. And I told her i was sorry for never saying goodbye at the end and she forgave me and I told her that I loved her and hoped she had found peace, which she said she did. I don’t know if this was some divine intervention or just a dream, but it felt different and I feel different today.

Love you Mamaw. 

and im dissatisfied with my music because it’s not “weird”

also why the fuck did you have to ruin some of my favorite music for me? 

and I still fucking miss you